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Tuesday, November 23, 2010

Thin

I've noticed a few things about this blog...

first, there's folks that I've never met who "follow" this blog and are leaving comments. This is totally cool and I'm blown away by the fact that there's people out there who have never met me or my family who care about what's going on in my life. It's weird....cool, but a bit weird. i ran into an old friend a month or so back who said that they love my writing and can't wait to read each new blog post. I'm not very good at taking compliments....but I'm thankful that this blog is serving some purpose beyond myself.

and second....I feel that, to some degree, my blog reads like some kind of families fantasy world. I've posted at great length about the successes of my families endeavors and the victories that The Lord has won in my life.....I guess I feel like I've painted a less-than-accurate picture of life...one full of successes.....tonight I feel like I need to set the record straight....I feel like shit.

I'm thin. I'm worn. I'm sick of being the wonderful, engaged parent. Chrissy has been out of commission with a hurt back for three days and I'm done being uber-dad. On top of everything that is going on with Chrissy's bad back....Ivy is teething...and on top of Chrissy's bad back and Ivy's teething...It's freaking Thanksgiving in 36 hours. Last night, Ivy went to bed at 10:45 pm....tonight she went to bed at 10:15. I'm spent.

I should be thankful...there's thousands of moms and dads, in the military, for instance, who are worlds away from their families and would literally kill to spend 3 days, morning, noon, and night with their kids....I'm sure that my "thinness" is rooted in selfishness. Maybe 'cuz I was an only child....I don't know.

I don't drink much these days...but I've had three beers and I've got a little glow on...and I feel guilty for that. Maybe it's selfish...maybe it's me wanting to feel "free" and spend a few hours for myself after my family finally went to bed tonight. maybe it's me knowing that I'll be up sometime around 6:30am tomorrow with kids who are ready to conquer the world while I can hardly muster enough mental energy to brew coffee. I should probably go to bed.

I do give thanks, though. Wife. Kids. God. Family...I am thankful. I may sound thin...and short...and crappy...but I am thankful....and HE gives way more strength than I'm capable of mustering on my own.

Happy Thanksgiving.

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